Sadly starting off this week (Sunday night) by being assulted and left half naked by side road ... A far few scraches and bruises and head bumps - Ambulance people were very kind but didn't want to go to Hospital as, if anyone with a record of drug abuse is admitted, we're treated like (Words fail me) - Badly bascially.. self-afflicted is frowned upon...
Bit shook up and going out for normal day to day things isn't easy, but using self-tuaght coping mechanisms and it's slowly getting a touch easier...
I had only been out for a meal with an ex - didn't drink (meth & drink is a 100% nono for me...not just for the obvious health reasons, but am not fond of losing control at mo, especially when I need to keep myself mindful at all times - Almost zen like Focus is a hard thing at best of times..)...
I am OK - few things missing,(clothing, IPod, Money) but alive so I am thankful for that...
Apologies for the rather self- pitying tone here - I'm still a little concussed I think...
Tuesday, June 17
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Sorry to hear of your mishap. Glad for you that you've dropped again.
Anyway. What I meant was for you to take control of your own reduction. It gets harder each time and it's the mental depression that really gets to me. I am really stuck, not sure whether to carry on reducing or call it a day and resign myself to a lifelong methadone script. After 30yrs on opiates, opioids and benzos I reckon it's too late to expect endorphins to repair themselves. I don't ever remember being really happy straight, anyway. I've had some amazing experiences and an interesting life, but always felt happier on my own. Luckily I'm not, but she says I may as well be.
Anyway, best of luck for the future, mate.
Thanks....
I agree it's a hell of a decision whther to just think "I am Ill; I need my medication" rather akin to a daibetic or the like.
Each to their own - and I really wish you luck with whatever direction you choose - I'm here if you ever need a chat...we seem cut from a similar cloth...
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